M. Cagle

AP Drawing/Painting Portfolio (Breadth)

AP Drawing/Painting (Concentration)

What is the central idea of your concentration?

My concentration is based on my experience with anxiety and how it has worsened in the past year. Through the pieces I have created, I display what I feel like in my daily life and the direct impacts of those feelings. The imagery is filled with different colors or sometimes no color at all in an attempt to confuse, disturb, or identify with the viewer’s own battles; most importantly though, I chose this theme in order to express my own trials as they are such a big part of my life.

How does the work in your concentration demonstrate the exploration of your idea? (Specific images are referenced by the image numbers)

The artwork in my concentration demonstrates how my anxiety feels; by using myself as the subject, I was able to provide imagery that I feel adequately illustrates what I experience. Unfortunately, my anxiety spiraled out of control this year. As I was hospitalized for seizures, given EEG’s like in piece number 3, and put on medication, it felt like I was continuously being pulled underwater as I demonstrated in piece 7. In fact, in most of my work there is something or someone overpowering me because often, it feels like I am not in control. In pieces 1 and 8, the imagery signifies how little jurisdiction it feels like I have over my mental illness which is very discouraging at times. Although all of the pieces identify with me, Images 10 and 11 are perhaps the most accurate of my struggle. The works depict myself tied to a figure that represents my anxiety; it’s significant because no matter which one of the figures in the paintings moves, they will both continue to be stuck to each other. Although anxiety disorders are difficult, it’s important for myself and others to remember that with the bad days come good ones as well. There will always be times like in piece 9 where I am able to enjoy the little things and forget about my anxiety, and for those I am thankful.

 

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